Grounded in Home - Reflection

I'm facing myself with brave compassion. I am facing how all the emotions of this year and the season have left me a bit ungrounded. Bettsy and I have been preparing all year in important ceremonies and for ceremonies to come. It is a very important chapter of our story and of my life that is beginning but I feel that when I don't take time to nurture myself and my family I start losing the plot. I have to be ok, especially in this political atmosphere, to take in the wholesome, cozy and mundane things to my life to be forever grateful. I even did it in prayer this morning when I made my prayer a moment of gratitude for my home, my family, my marriage. These miracles I was blessed with. I exist in small natural things. I exist more in wholesome little things attached to nature and love than in any other space that I was sold to as grand and needed. And when I enter ceremonial spaces I have to do it with the intention of enhancing this nurturing. Not even just for Bettsy and me but for everyone we also nurture, our LGBTQ siblings and our loved ones.

I am grounding myself in the warmth and softness of home at this juncture. I will not lose this in my preparations or in the midst of a political crisis. LGBTQ families create our own wholesome. We are now more than ever creating our mutual and community life-giving in a space about to increase in hostility. I'm ready to create the opposite for everyone that I love and those parts of my tribe I have yet to meet.

In honor of all that my ancestors gave me...